So it’s late…I really should be sleeping. Instead I’ve fallen into a YouTube rabbit hole!
Are you ever blown away by the amazingly talented people with whom we share this earth? What ability! What influence!
I’d love to throw my voice out there, to be able to have an effect on the world. To have people type my name into a web browser and see a neat tidy list of my accomplishments and contributions. I don’t believe it’s a fame thing, persay. I’m talking about knowing that I’ve used what I was given and made an impact.
There’s a story in the Bible about a landowner who goes on a long journey. Before he leaves he calls three of his servants and leaves them with some money. Jesus never says that he told them what to do with what they were given. I guess, it was implied that they were merely stewards and that they were to do with this money as they thought their master would do. Anyways, the first two double their money and are richly rewarded when their master returns. The third, however, digs a hole and hides the money. He gets ridiculed a lot, but, since I’m a hoarder by nature, I think I understand his thought process. It’s not that he didn’t want to invest it, he just wasn’t sure what to invest in. Panicked he simply buries it to keep it safe. Better to bury it, than to lose it all together, right?
When I was in my early teens, I worked for a lady with horses. I mucked stalls, bathed and fed her horses and did some basic tack cleaning. Every time she paid me, I tucked it away in a bedside table drawer. After a few months, my dad caught me trying to shut my drawer on top of my stacks of dollar bills. Shocked he asked how much I had in there. I shrugged and said, “I dunno, probably around $400 now.” He took me to open my first bank account that afternoon.
Even now, my husband is constantly reminding me that we cannot just leave a chunk of money sitting somewhere. It needs to be in a mutual fund or something where it can earn some interest for us while we’re saving. I see the wisdom in it, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t make me nervous.
I think anytime I’m trying to decide what to invest in, I start to get overwhelmed and nervous and would much rather just “bury it.” You see, growing up I heard many (so so so many) sermons and challenges about not “burying your talents,” but using them for the Lord. Always in the context of “you know what you should be doing, but you’re not.” Never in the context I needed. Which is “what am I supposed to be doing?”
Honestly!! Tell me what I’m good at!! I’ll start using it for You, Lord, right this very minute!!
I have tried many things in my life, all the while hoping to discover some hidden talent that blows everyone away. You know what I’ve found? Nothing! Not a thing!
Anyone else with me? Or am I the only one?
Be honest! I’m a great listener! That IS one thing I’m good at.