Just Let Me Vent

I’ve always lived by the motto to never vent on the internet.

Today I’m breaking my motto. I’m breaking a rule, because, “Rules were meant to be broken,” right??

Besides, there’s only a slight chance I’ll actually publish this post.

Why am I so tired?

Yes, I know, I know all the common answers. You’re a mom of four, who homeschools and keeps a household running. Well, let me tell you. My kids are a lot of work, but, really they sleep 12 hours a night and two of them take naps in the afternoon. “But thats when you get all of your work done.” Nope! I do all of my cleaning and housework while they’re awake and running around my legs. I don’t spend my days, “Chasing my kids.” They go about their lives with a few interruptions from me to keep our household in a good rhythm and routine. Many times I’ve put the younger two down for naps and told the other two to play a video game or watch a movie quietly while I try to get some rest. Why on Earth is it so hard to just do that more often?

Why do I feel Lazy?

I read an article entitled “Lazy parenting” a couple of weeks ago, basically outlining how to create a safe space for your kids then step back and let them just “be.” For a while. I’m sorry, that pretty much describes my entire life of parenting. So does that make me a lazy parent? I don’t remember my mom being in on every conversation, play time, and moment. Am I really supposed to interject myself into their every moment? Would that make me a “hard working parent?”

My husband is always talking about his mom was awake and going about her day by the time they woke up. I’ve also heard many women harp on how amazing and peaceful it is to have that time to yourself in the morning. I’ve tried it! It’s not peaceful when all you want to do is crawl back into those comfortable sheets and lay your head back down on those sweet smelling pillows and dream about whatever your subconscious can come up with.

Why should I struggle with Mom guilt that I’m not doing more with my children? Why do I struggle with just the regular, every day guilt that I’m not accomplishing more in my day to day?

Maybe you know the answer, maybe you feel the same way. Either way, thanks for letting me just vent!

Grasping At Straws

On May 2nd, I participated in a Spartan race up in Big Fork, Montana. It was exciting and terrifying all at the same time. I have been lifting weights and getting fit for a little over a year, and thought I could probably compete without dying.

Technically, I was right. My teammate and I finished middle of the pack, nothing to brag about, but nothing to sneeze at either. A few of the toughest obstacles for me were all of the different types of monkey bars.

I remember being amazing at the monkey bars as a kid, but now, I guess my upper body strength did not keep up with my body weight. Shocker, right?

Yesterday, I took my kids to the park to play with friends, and there, in the middle of the playground, stood my arch nemesis. The monkey bars!

I fooled around on them for a while. Made it across one set, and was trying a different technique on another when I hurt my left hand. See when you lift weights or do a lot of strength training, you get these callouses on your palms right below your fingers. For me its worst right below my ring finger, because of my wedding rings.

When I let go of the monkey bars that last time, something in the movement had pulled off the callous on my left hand, leaving a gaping hole of raw skin.

This morning I wrapped my hand, put my gloves on, and started my workout. You know what? Even with everything wrapped and bandaged, my grip was off. I was not able to preform as many reps as usual, and it got me thinking.

Not having a good grip can really hold you back.

Not having a firm grasp on what’s important, makes every day tasks a whole lot harder.

I’m going to get a little more specific. Not having a proper grasp on Christ can make you lose sight of what is important in this world.

If you’re living every day trying to “find yourself” but you haven’t truly found Him, then you’re simply “grasping at straws” to survive. Reach out and hold on to the One. The One Who can tell you who you are, who you belong to, and where you’re meant to be.

Reservation for Crazy: Part Three

So I’ve spent the last two weeks chronicling our crazy month long vacation. If you missed the first two parts and want to catch up, they are on my website or on my Facebook page.

Today’s post will summarize our Disney World experience!

Days One and Two we spent at Magic Kingdom. Most of the rides and restaurants were open and even with the social distancing the wait times were hardly ever longer than thirty minutes. I was worried that my kids were all going to be “stick-in-the-muds” since we have not really ever rode rides before, but they did great!! Capri and Ella even fell in love with the Thunder Mountain Railroad and rode it a couple of times.

Days Three and Four we spent at Hollywood Studios. Other than Toy Story Land and Mickey and Minnie’s Runaway Railway there was not much at this park for us. I’ve seen almost all of the Star Wars movies, and we did ride the simulation rides, but we only did a couple of hours each day and spent the rest of the day swimming at our AirBnB or exploring the town.

Days Five and Six we spent at Animal Kingdom. The kids definitely had the most fun at this park. We did not start on the Wilderness Explorers activities until the second day we were there, but were able to find all the badges and finish the book. Colton was very proud of our accomplishment.

Days Seven and Eight were spent at EPCOT. This park was definitely the most entertaining to just walk around. The rides were fun, but definitely not the main point of the park at all. The kids enjoyed picking up the “postcards” in each country and trying to guess which country was next without reading any signs.

Overall, we had a blast! My only complaint would be the constant “need” to have a mask. I’m very glad we stayed in an AirBnB not affiliated with Disney so we could get a break from what will always be known as the “Mask Nazis.”

Next up on the agenda is Okeechobee to visit family, then on to the Florida Keys!!

Reservation for Crazy: Part Two

Hello again! Let me start with a quick recap. My family decided to spend a month away from work and snow. So a couple of days ago we all boarded a plane bound for Florida.

I’ve done quite a few road trips with my kids and what I have learned is to never pack my own snacks. Now maybe your kids, or even you yourself, are happy with what you’ve so thoughtfully picked out for them before you hit the road, but mine are not. I could have the most delicious chocolates and delicacies in my diaper bag, but when we stop for gas all they want to do is go inside and pick out something that we don’t have. Can I blame them? I’m the same way, sometimes.

What does this have to do with flying? Well, my husband and I went down a “minimalist packing” path. Knowing we would be in rentals for a month with limited space, I knew I didn’t want the stress of loads of luggage. So, everybody only gets 4 outfits, a pair of pajamas and a swimsuit. Following this line of thought we decided to not bring any toys. NO TOYS?!?!?! ARE YOU CRAZY?!??! Maybe. But we knew we would have limited space AND that we would be spending 8 days at Disney World. You cannot spend 8 days at Disney World and 3 weeks road tripping around Florida without accumulating toys. So really all they had to do was make it one full day without conventional toys.

Now, I’ll tell you what we DID bring. Each of the older three had their own MP3, a digital camera, and a kindle for books. I also had packets of schoolwork in case they got bored.

For my youngest, I brought snacks and his special blanket. He ended up being fascinated looking at the window, eating his snacks, and wiping everything down with the sanitizing wipe the flight attendants gave him. He also fell asleep for an hour, so bonus!!

Once we got to our final destination airport I was very grateful for our light packing. Four kids, two adults, six backpacks, a stroller, and three car seats sure made for a fun parade from baggage claim to the car rental location.

Also, I had rented a large SUV (because they were cheaper than minivans) thinking we’d have loads of space. I, myself, drive a Ford Expedition. Nope, we have the tiniest GMC Yukon known to man. With zero storage space. We have to fold down seats to keep our stroller in the back. I’m so glad we have very minimal baggage.

As of right now, we are two days into our eight days of Disney. Next week, I’ll give you all an update of how that went.

Reservation for Crazy?!? Part One

So flying with children has always been this dreaded, stress-inducing ordeal for me. I think most moms can relate. They get so excited about the plane and the adrenaline from that makes it impossible for them to sit still. Not that sitting still is in their wheelhouse anyway.

We, as moms, read through articles and scroll through Pinterest looking for traveling hacks and tips. Sometimes those tips and hacks are lifesavers but most of the time, they remind us that all children are 100% different and what works like gangbusters for one or two does not even come close for another.

Now enter stage left CoVid 19! Now on top of being trapped in a flying tin can with upset, antsy children and 100 other people, we have to wear masks and “social distance.” Not even sure how thats supposed to happen with airline seats the way they are. You’d be crazy to want to fly now, right? Right!

Guess who is flying across the country with her husband and four kids ages 9 and under?? You guessed it! It’s crazy old me.

My husband and I originally planned to do a missions trip overseas in celebration of our 10th anniversary, but obviously thats near impossible right now. Instead, we decided to take the kids to Disney World! Great idea, right? I certainly hope so.

Want to know something even crazier? After Disney World we are planning on just exploring the coast line of Florida, Louisiana, and maybe Texas for a few weeks. After which we will drive home to Wyoming. Crazy, Party of Six?!?! *I raise my hand* Here we are!

So over the next few weeks, if I survive, I’ll be updating you all on our trip. Wish me luck!!